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To Joplin I Go – God Willing :)

5 Jul

I have traveled up and down the West cost NUMEROUS times. I have even (briefly) been up to Canada as a youngin’ and Mexico twice. But I have NEVER traveled further east than Arizona. Let me show you a map of just how far East (or not so) Arizona is.

Now, I’m not one to complain. Really. I am VERY INCREDIBLY thankful to have been to Washington, Oregon, California, Nevada, and Arizona. But my love of accents and curiosity of the flat plains in the mid-West keeps pestering me.

On a more serious note…

When the tornadoes hit Joplin this past-May, the thought of a mission trip briefly crossed my mind. I didn’t think much of it until I overheard Shane talking to AJ about a plan to go a couple weeks ago. (I’m a middle child, i’m nosey!) I interrupted him (woops!) to verify what I heard was true…and it WAS! I was SUPER pumped about it – especially to go with many of my closest friends!!! But then…the dates were announced. September 1-9. And I was torn.

My older sister is due with her second child that same week. Right smack dab in the middle. September 6.

Sure, you can never really plan when to give birth (naturally). She can have it a week early or two weeks late. My sister wants me there, and I want to be there.

I also have my first family reunion in 11 years that same week.

I love spending time with my family, being around my own flesh and blood who love me. I want to be there, too!

But the passion to serve in my own country where people are in need was too strong to ignore and forget about.

I need to go where He wants me. And the Lord is calling me to Joplin.

With that being said, I need YOUR help.

I wholeheartedly believe that where God guides, God provides. And sometimes His provision is through support from others. I have been super blessed the last couple years I’ve gone to San Vicente, Mexico with the youth group as the timing of the trip is around the same time I get my tax refund check. But this time, it’s different and I am relying on God to provide the way for me to go. I will be saving as much as I can, but I know I won’t be able to do it all myself.

So, if you feel called to do so, please pray and if you feel lead to donate, please do. Even if all you can do is pray I will receive the funds, I will be just as thankful! Seriously!

I know how great and big our God is. The total amount for the trip is not for sure yet. Shane mentioned something in the area of $700-800. I also am taking a week off work, which is a pretty good chunk – especially coming off such a busy Summer. With that being said…my goal is $1000, ALL extra money I don’t need will be given to the Calvary Chapel in Joplin or to victims of the tornadoes directly.

I am excited for the opportunity to serve the Lord in the United States. Having been through natural disasters at my own house growing up, and being super blessed by my churches serving the Lord and helping my family, I am thankful to do the same for others.

Please pray for this trip. That all details will fall into place. That we may all be prepared to serve the Lord wholeheartedly and genuinely. That all funds for everyone will be provided, and if this trip is not the Lord’s will for me (or someone else), that we will be okay with that, too.

If you would like to donate to my trip fund, please click the image below. I am doing it through my Paypal. If you would like to send a donation in the mail, please email me at

Thank you.

In Christ love,



it may be hard, but i do.

4 Aug

When i first began listening to Christian music…i was introduced to a WHOLE new world. The late-Summer of 2006 i would spend hours ripping music from Andrew’s cd’s. Every song had a different meaning and i loved listening to them.

But now i find myself tired of those songs…so overplayed on my computer and Spirit 105.3 that i almost forgot the beautiful words those songs hold. I didn’t know how powerful they would be to me 5 years after i REALLY began walking with the Lord. One of those songs…is a Jeremy Camp song. Now, he gets a lot of crap for not being “artistic” or “creative” enough with his music. Yes…a lot of his songs kinda sound alike. But often when you REALLY give the lyrics a read, they have the power to penetrate the heart.

I remember sitting in my sisters loud-mouthed Jetta as we passed through the streetlight where Highway 9 and 84th cross in Marysville. We were headed to Corey and Heidi’s house for Young Adult’s. The sun was low in the sky and once we topped the hill, the view was absolutely beautiful. I remember Heather telling me about the artist playing and how his wife died four months after they married…the song playing was written shortly after she died.

We don’t need the passing of a loved one to relate to the song, relatively speaking i haven’t lost much in my life and i can relate! Anytime the Lord puts trials and loss before us, the wavering-Believers from the stable ones are weeded out. Our attitude towards said trial is an indicator of our true hearts. It’s easy to fake a walk with the Lord…until life gets hard.

I Still Believe

Scattered words and empty thoughts
Seem to pour from my heart
I’ve never felt so torn before
Seems i dont know where to start
But its now i feel Your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip washing away my pain

I still believe in Your faithfulness
I still believe in Your truth
I still believe in Your holy Word
Even when I dont see I still believe

Though the questions still fog up my mind
With promises i still seem to bear
Even when answers slowly unwind
It’s my heart I see You prepare
But its now that I feel Your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip washing away my pain

The only place I can go is into Your arms
Where I throw to You my feeble prayers in brokeness
I can see that this is Your will for me
Help me to know You are near

I can’t lie…it has been really hard for me to pray. The first two lines of the song sum it up perfectly, “Scattered words and empty thoughts seem to pour from my heart”. I try…and i end up on some crazy tangent. I can’t get over the “why?” and grow frustrated…and then come to God in frustration. The easiest times for me to pray is when i’m sad or angry…but about 90% of my prayers are selfish, feeble prayers for myself. It’s frustrating. I create prayer lists…but they only last for about a night. I think it would be so cool to be one of those “prayer warrior” folks. But i fail at it massively.