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Second Chances…

27 Oct

Do you ever grow through times when your past comes to haunt you?

You know you’re forgiven, but the disappointment that you know your past will bring to the future is stumbling and depressing.

That’s the funk I am in…

Mainly because I caught myself almost making some of the same old mistakes, but how many times will i have to learn.

I’m thankful for His grace and mercy, how sweet it is. But I know the times I let my heart go into the hands of someone else will prove problematic.

If God can forgive us for our mistakes, can’t other people?

Is it really hard to believe that we all far short of His glory and mess up? We’re all guilty, all of us. Equally. Even if you commit five sins and I commit six, we’re still sinners together.

….do you know where this is leading?

Because I am going there…

to the topic of my future husband.

Haha.

The scars of my past relationships make me afraid to tell that wonderful man, whoever he is, how fall I’ve fallen short of the Lord’s glory. But…I know that if it’s the Lord will, that man will have the mercy and grace to forgive me as I am forgiven in Jesus’ eyes.

All the boys I’ve lent my heart to…

All the times I have been uberly prideful…

All the moment such despicable sins bring me far from His glory…

That guy will forgive.

But I just wish I hadn’t done all those things…

I wish I could be the most perfect woman for him, because I know he’ll deserve it.

But I guess my shortcomings is what will spice up life and make me that perfect woman for him…

And I guess I must remember he is far from the glory of Jesus, too…

And he has made mistakes…

So if I want to be forgiven, I need to forgive, too.

Second Chances – NEEDTOBREATHE

All my past is color
Placed inside my hands
Empty is the canvas
Patiently I plan
Stars are bright above me
That’s not where I am
Greens will be behind me
Blues will make the man

I can’t help but fear I’ve done this wrong
Cause seldom second chances come along

Greys are all around me
Fading into black
Stars were bright above me
Won’t you bring them back

I can’t help but fear I’ve done this wrong
Cause seldom second chances come along
If time can break us, will it make us strong
Cause seldom second chances come along

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How It Came to Be…

12 Aug

About five years ago I was shown a video on Youtube…

This video

A few years ago I was watching it again and was curious if Lifehouse had anymore Christian songs…

And I started searching, listening, and downloading MANY of their songs..hundreds. Album, Acoustic, and Live.

And I fell in love with the band and discovered many of their songs do have to do with Christ.

And that, my friends, is the story of how I came to love the band. 🙂

The end…

To Joplin I Go – God Willing :)

5 Jul

I have traveled up and down the West cost NUMEROUS times. I have even (briefly) been up to Canada as a youngin’ and Mexico twice. But I have NEVER traveled further east than Arizona. Let me show you a map of just how far East (or not so) Arizona is.

Now, I’m not one to complain. Really. I am VERY INCREDIBLY thankful to have been to Washington, Oregon, California, Nevada, and Arizona. But my love of accents and curiosity of the flat plains in the mid-West keeps pestering me.

On a more serious note…

When the tornadoes hit Joplin this past-May, the thought of a mission trip briefly crossed my mind. I didn’t think much of it until I overheard Shane talking to AJ about a plan to go a couple weeks ago. (I’m a middle child, i’m nosey!) I interrupted him (woops!) to verify what I heard was true…and it WAS! I was SUPER pumped about it – especially to go with many of my closest friends!!! But then…the dates were announced. September 1-9. And I was torn.

My older sister is due with her second child that same week. Right smack dab in the middle. September 6.

Sure, you can never really plan when to give birth (naturally). She can have it a week early or two weeks late. My sister wants me there, and I want to be there.

I also have my first family reunion in 11 years that same week.

I love spending time with my family, being around my own flesh and blood who love me. I want to be there, too!

But the passion to serve in my own country where people are in need was too strong to ignore and forget about.

I need to go where He wants me. And the Lord is calling me to Joplin.

With that being said, I need YOUR help.

I wholeheartedly believe that where God guides, God provides. And sometimes His provision is through support from others. I have been super blessed the last couple years I’ve gone to San Vicente, Mexico with the youth group as the timing of the trip is around the same time I get my tax refund check. But this time, it’s different and I am relying on God to provide the way for me to go. I will be saving as much as I can, but I know I won’t be able to do it all myself.

So, if you feel called to do so, please pray and if you feel lead to donate, please do. Even if all you can do is pray I will receive the funds, I will be just as thankful! Seriously!

I know how great and big our God is. The total amount for the trip is not for sure yet. Shane mentioned something in the area of $700-800. I also am taking a week off work, which is a pretty good chunk – especially coming off such a busy Summer. With that being said…my goal is $1000, ALL extra money I don’t need will be given to the Calvary Chapel in Joplin or to victims of the tornadoes directly.

I am excited for the opportunity to serve the Lord in the United States. Having been through natural disasters at my own house growing up, and being super blessed by my churches serving the Lord and helping my family, I am thankful to do the same for others.

Please pray for this trip. That all details will fall into place. That we may all be prepared to serve the Lord wholeheartedly and genuinely. That all funds for everyone will be provided, and if this trip is not the Lord’s will for me (or someone else), that we will be okay with that, too.

If you would like to donate to my trip fund, please click the image below. I am doing it through my Paypal. If you would like to send a donation in the mail, please email me at katiefargher@gmail.com.

Thank you.

In Christ love,

Kattie.

The Video that Started it All…

22 Jun

Do yourself a favor, watch the whole thing 🙂 It’s my favorite live performance!

You can’t deny he is singing to Jesus…and the emotion on Jason Wade’s face, golly! 🙂 lol

The Older I Get…

25 Mar

The more wise I become! I amaze myself…and I give the glory to my Jesus!

Unfortunately, not everyone allows themselves to experience such a privilege.

But truly, the Lord has really been “seasoning” me, so to speak, over the last couple years. Through said wisdom, I watch out for warning signs…and i LISTENED to them. I knew what to pray for – and am thankful when I open my eyes and realize He is faithful to answer my prayers. Just not always in the manner I expect!

This verse caught my eye last night while going over 1 Thessalonians 4 at The Gathering –

“Faithful is He who calls you, and He also will bring it to pass.” 1 Thessalonians  5:24

It’s amazing to see His handiwork. It’s an amazing feeling when you take each moment as it is, not jumping to conclusions. It’s an amazing feeling when a dumb little thing can totally give you a different perspective over a heartbreaking situation.

Lessons have been learned, my expectations have grown, and my faith in my FAITHFUL Lord Jesus has increased.

Over some stupid little thing…but a stupid little thing He knew I needed.

He really is amazing…

And His grace and mercy is never ending.

It’s not good to be afraid to pray for something, He already knows it all…you can’t hide! Bring it to His throne – and His will be done!

Amen. Come, Lord Jesus!

Going Through the Motions

24 Mar

Growing up is most definitely rewarding, fulfilling, and interesting. But there are, of course, certain things in the moment that seem rather…useless.

Can i get an, “Amen!”?!?

Those moments always seem to make sense later on though…

When I look at pictures of myself and others, I ALWAYS look at the eyes. The eyes are said to be the window of the soul. They give away the truth of what the person is experiencing. Whether the truth is exhaustion, joy, fulfillment, accomplishment, sorrow, heartbreak, etc. Compare pictures of yourself or a friend from today to the ones two years ago, do you see the difference? The difference of a child becoming an adult? The difference of maturity in the eyes of a person?

Being able to see that difference is why i love Facebook. (Yes, I am going there!)

You see… it wasn’t always as easy to see the day by day changes of you and your peers after a couple years in a couple minutes. But with Facebook, all you gotta do is hit the right arrow key, and you are flipping through the life of a person and are able to see growth (or stagnancy) in but a moment! And I guarantee, if you look at the eyes of the person, you will notice a difference.

A difference that makes me yearn for the days of yesterday…but remind me to enjoy today because I don’t want to spend my whole life wishing I was still in the yesterday’s.

Life is definitely not where I want it.

Far from it.

I want to be a wife, I want to be a mom, I want to be a soccer mom (just without the jeans, haircut, and mini-van).

But this is where He has me. Today.

I am single. But that doesn’t mean I am not able to prepare myself for the future. It’s doesn’t mean life is boring. I still get asked out, which makes for good stories to giggle about with my friends. And I also still get to experience the giddyness of a new relationship…again (but hey, i love the giddyness!) There are possibilities in impossible situations…or in desperate circumstances where temptation lures for me to be bitter and evil.

What usually hangs me up on moving on from something…is remembering how great the past was. How happy I was at a certain time at different periods of my life…reminding myself in the blissful moments to take everything in, because I just might not get the chance to in the future. Something I had to learn to do.

The eyes I look into today do not hold the same innocence and immaturity as they once did. And as sad as that could be, I know it’s for the better.

I realize that my life has been wasted, once again…for far, far too long. I could have enjoyed my life much more had nothing ever happened, but now…I kinda am thankful. I know I learned a lot through everything…and 90% of the time I wish I didn’t have to learn it at all. At least at that time. But I find peace in knowing He has a reason. I am just impatiently waiting for that reason. I know through all the change taking place in my life at this time, my heart has and will continue to seek openness with my Jesus. For Him to do His good work in me as He promised in Romans 8:28. And there is still SO much that He can do.

And when i do find myself hurting, all I know I need is Jesus.

And maybe Jason Wade’s voice singing in the background…

😉

Better Luck Next Time -Lifehouse

Sometimes we fall
Ain’t nothing new to me
Don’t get me wrong
I must say you gave up for this time now

Stop tell me where you going
Maybe the one you love isn’t there
You’re going under
But you’re over it all so you don’t care about all that I had to see
I’d watch you wait until you come around

Don’t close your eyes
You need to see it all
It’s no surprise
That they break you down
At least they won’t give you up

Stop tell me where you going
Maybe the one you love isn’t there
You’re going under
But you’re over it all so you don’t care about all that I had to see
I’d watch you wait until you come around

It’s all wonderful
Living happily
To lose it all
Think you have everything

Stop tell me where you going
Maybe the one you love isn’t there
You’re going under
But you’re over it all so you don’t care about all that I had to see
I’d watch you wait until you come around

Stop tell me where you going
Maybe the one you love isn’t there
You’re going under
But you’re over it all so you don’t care about all that I had to see
I’d watch you wait until you come around

This is the end…if you want it.

17 Mar

If the last 5 years have proved to me something about my life – it’s that when there is 1 major change, five million more changes proceed with it. Changes can be good – it’s a new flavor of life. You just don’t quite know what the Lord can do now.

20 months ago – i was in  my heyday of life so far. I was at peace with the Lord, I was moving out of my childhood home to live with 4 AMAZING women, i had a boyfriend, my job was going great – no longer was i being pulled between two different stores for I was an official partner at 3303, my nephew was growing and breaking my heart with his CUTENESS (still does…my gosh!), the Summer was ending – that Summer was THE best Summer of my life. But with all the goodness, I knew something had to give…and 6 weeks after moving in, I became a single girl…again. Did NOT expect it, but it happened. And my first heartbreak I experienced my junior year of high school (that i thought was the most horrible thing ever) was put to shame by how helpless and pathetic I felt. And for the next 18 months…I once again became my own worst enemy, torturing myself to no end.

And then my car broke down

And then I moved out

And then I got a dog

And then…well, there’s another “then”, but I won’t discuss it further.

But that was the tip of the iceberg.

That “And then” is the thing that can send me spiraling to the end of nowhere.

It’s the thing that will destroy me to no end.

It’s like when you get a really bad cut on your knee when playing “Wolf” in your friends driveway…and then having her paramedic step-dad dig out all the gravel only to reveal your tibia protruding. And THEN he pours hydrogen peroxide on the cut while you watch that evil liquid kill all the blood cells and foam up.

That story may be from personal experience…. 😛

But sometimes…you need to be in that position. Lord knows what came out of the last time i found myself in the same predicament. Brokenness turned to openness…which then turned into renewal and peace and maturity.

In the case of the wound – after it gets all cleaned up, a butterfly bandage is placed on the knee cap to assist the wound to close. And then some gauze…and after a week or less of having your knobby, skinny, skeleton legs bandaged, everything begins to heal. And what emerges later is an awesome scar that feels funny to touch…but makes for a good story.

In this case, I will be able to use this trial (which I find to be unneeded…) to be part of my testimony. The Lord has a reason He put me here again. Let’s just hope it doesn’t break  more hearts than needed.

Regardless of what happens, I will surround myself with awesome girls (Can I just say how much I love my roommates- new AND old? I had a much needed conversation with Nicole and Justine…and then came home to have another great conversation with Morgan and Chelsea!) Totally worth staying up until midnight (which was once early for me to go to sleep….odd.)

I will also take this time to personally thank Matt Theissen for using his  heartbreak to write the songs on Relient K’s Forget and Not Slow Down album. So thankful! 😉

The Lord can do a lot in this time of my life – His faithfulness in my past has proved that to be true over and over again. But it’s painful watching everything happen before your eyes…it’s painful to remember when you were. But unlike 20 months ago when everything was going amazingly well for me and I knew something had to give…I am facing the opposite circumstance. With everything seemingly falling apart and responsibility at an all time high – life can only get better. For 2o months, I have been waiting for everything to “get worse before it can get better.” And it’s happened. I don’t like it. Rather, i hate it. Despise it. Loathe it.

And then my brain clicks on…or maybe my conscience, and I realize that my pride is getting in the way. My pride is telling me I can’t be happy for this change. I can’t be bitter to a situation that has nothing to do with me today. But I want to. So I think I’ll just be crazy bitter for the next couple days to get it all out so I get sick of this bitterness and get over it. Because I don’t want to be a part of it. I want to forget it and move on. I want to have nothing get in my way of my relationship with my Lord. And this is. It’s distracting. And I will do what I have to if it comes to that.

And now for the lyrics, you knew those were comes, right?

Forget and Not Slow Down

How many times
Can I push it aside
Is it time I befriended all the ghosts of all the things that haunt me most
So they leave me alone
Move on with my life
Be certain the steps of left and right don’t fight the direction of upright

I’d rather forget and not slow down
Than gather regret for the things I can’t change now
If I become what I can’t accept
Resurrect the saint from within the wretch
Pour over me and wash my hands of it

It’s time to decide
Which is out of my mind
Cause it’ll be me unless I put some thoughts to rest and leave some faults behind
I’ll watch the glint in my eye
Shine off the spring in my step
And could be blinding depending on the amount of You that I reflect

Cause I could spend my life just trying to sift through
What I could’ve done better but what good do what ifs do
Oh oh
Oh oh
There’s something I should tell you now