To My Future Beloved:

14 Feb

To whom it may concern:

Here I sit in the back room of the Red House on a futon that could very well have a mouse below it.

it’s cute…i don’t want to kill it

Oh, and you better not be scared of mice…or spiders, snakes, or childbirth.

I am 22 and live with 4 other single girls (for now.) It is 1:11 AM on Valentine’s day, I have to get up in 6.5 hours…but I am a blog writing mood and figured I would write a blog dedicated to you. Whoever you are, wherever you are…

For the first time in months…and months…and months…my heart is beginning to seep in the contentment only my Jesus could give me for this current season of singleness. I am determined not to let my mind lose focus, Lord only knows how often I jump at the opportunity to fall in love when I come to this point. I don’t want to fail this trial, I feel I have already…but I am not out of the woods yet. There’s still time to be redeemed…which is why I am writing you on the day of hearts, candy, and chocolate.

By the way – I don’t really like chocolate. I love strawberries…much yummier 🙂

I don’t really have much to say…only that I am waiting for you. I could have met you already…or you could be half-way around the world, not knowing my name or face. I know I can’t force my way into your heart…or jump at every opportunity of love in case the random strangers who ask me out are you (it’s not fun breaking hearts…so hurry up!) I know of the peace the Lord can give to lead into a relationship, I wish I didn’t…but i do and I can’t argue anymore with the Lord why He lead me down that road…it’s done and over, and with that being said…I know that I will know when to say “yes” and when to say a BIG, FAT “NO!” if there are any doubts at all. AT ALL!

I’m not good at saying no…I don’t like hurting people.

Well, it’s now 130 AM and i DO want to get some sleep before tomorrow.

But there is one last thing…I really like sharing lyrics when they inspire me. And there is a song I have been listening to over and over again while writing this. It’s dedicated to you…whoever you are. We will play it at our wedding in one of the cheesy slideshows (though i have plans to make everyone cry like babies). I have 75% of our wedding planned out…and I also have our first born sons name picked out…i guess I may as well come clean now, eh?

Love is Waiting: Brooke Fraser

In the autumn on the ground, between the traffic and the ordinary sounds
I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows through
i watch as lovers pass me by
Walking stories – whos and hows and whys
Musing lazily on love
Pondering you
I’ll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell
When it’s time to walk that way we wanna walk it well

I’ll be waiting for you baby
I’ll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting til we’re ready, til it’s right
Love is waiting

It’s my caution not the cold
there’s no other hand that i would rather hold
the climate changes, im singing for the strangers about you
dont keep time, slow the pace
Honey hold on if you can
the bets are getting surer now that you’re my man

I could right a million songs about the way you say my name
I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again
and like I can’t force the sun to rise or hasten summer’s start,
neither should I rush my way into your heart.



One Response to “To My Future Beloved:”

  1. Aear1 2011 March 5 at 11:25 am #

    Right on!

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