Don’t Look Back

15 Oct

It’s kind of pathetic (at least in my eyes) that I often draw inspiration for my blogs when reading other folks’ blogs. It’s not ALWAYS that case, usually I come up with a good topic while at church or in my bed — but I NEVER remember to write those ideas down. And when I get the itch to blog (which honestly is like everyday), I get an idea from one of my daily blog reads.

I decided to check on a blog I haven’t really kept up with much and was super inspired by one of her recent posts — Pillar. I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this blog before, so I will spend this time in doing so. This blog is written by Angie Smith, the wife of one of the guys in the band Selah. A couple years ago she found out she was pregnant with her fourth daughter. However, early into the pregnancy they sadly discovered their growing daughter had conditions making her “incompatible with life”. She was encouraged to abort the pregnancy, but opening the chance for the Lord to create a miracle, they chose to carry her. Angie worte a book — I Will Carry You. I have yet to read it myself, but once my sister pays off my library account fee, it will definitely be on my list to check out!

Angie wrote the blog, Pillar, as mentioned above back in September. In all honesty, when I first read the title, my first thought was, “Oh boy, she is NOT writing about the band.” But then reading further into the blog, it came to my attention it definitely was NOT about the band, but about a story back in Genesis about Lot’s wife and a pillar of salt. The Lord promised Abraham (or was it Lot?) if there were 10 righteous people in Sodom and Gomorrah, He would not destroy the cities. Lo and behold, there were not 10 and the family was instructed to leave — and NOT look back. But what did Lot’s wife do as the cities were destroyed?

She looked back.

And turned into a pillar of salt.

Now, I don’t know about you, but if that happened to someone I love. I just would not know what to think!! Just a few moments ago they were a living, breathing, walking human being…and now? A pillar of salt!!! How weird. Thinking about that kinda makes me laugh…if my sister turned into a pillar of salt…well, I’d kinda wanna laugh. Am i the only one who find it kinda odd…in a funny way? I know it was NOT funny for Lot to have his wife turn into salt because it was the death of her…but i can’t help but find a tad bit of humor in it..

Thinking about that story, I can’t help but think how ignorant his wife was. God told her NOT to look back, and she did just that! How stupid! But ya know…I’m a looker backer. (bad grammar :))

I’m the type of person who has a hard time letting go of the past. The bad — I look back. The good — i look back. The ugly — i look back.

Paul wrote in Philippians 3:13 that we should be, “forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead.”…”press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”

I don’t know what Lot’s wife was looking back for. Remembrance, longing for a lost friend/family member, or just fear of moving. But the Lord told her not to. He tells us not to.

But i do all the time.

Satan obviously uses it against me. Thankfully I am not salt…yet.

And i pray and hope one day, if not today, I will find the strength in the Lord to move forward.

“Weeping may endure for a night,
But joy comes in the morning.”

Psalm 30:5

The yesterdays are there to grow from…not to draw sorrow out of.

Remember, remember, remember…

“Be CONFIDENT of this, He who begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.” Philippians 1:6




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